I love...

I I found something wonderful today. My legs are beautiful. 

 

I drew these and realized I love myself and my life. I live in Utah now. I have two great jobs. I am away from the bullshit. Sober. Happy. I am proud of who I am and thought the world should know. I doubt I will blog too often, obviously. Just want you to know I am wonderful.

I've lost weight. I go to the gym almost everyday. I stay positive. Look out world!

Email me if you ever worry. mhenige13@gmail.com

Random advise: Love youself.

Love, MK.

Happy Fucking Saturday

Well all. Today had turned into a wonderful day. I have finals next week and am excited to be finished with school. Last night I went out walking and around 8am I ended up at my house. Long story short my dad told me I have no friend cause I am a bitch blahblahblah I left the house and went back to the dorms.

I ended up going to the festival by my school today. I had to spend $40 for me and my friend because we couldn't buy tickets we had to buy bracelets. It was fun and we got to on rides. I won myself a fluffy polar bear and a lime green froggy! X) My poor friend Daniel ended up hurling on one of the rides poor guy. He seemed to have some fun too. Plus I got some books that Nickolas picked out for me. :) I spend waaaayyy too much money but it was worth it.

Now I am laying in bed after some of the best sex ever. I was just kind of manhandled to the ground. My hair was pulled and I was flipped over and my ass is bright red. Now to watch trueblood and laugh at it while I work on my review for one of my classes. Have a wonderful Saturday everyone. I will try to post more but I may not be back til finals are over.

Random Advise: Be open for a good fucking anytime. ;)

-MK

Another fire

So I ran off to my older brother's house to be with his family for the weekend. I thought it would be nice to get away and un-stress but I feel even more stressed. My phone is dead with no charger and I had plans Monday and can't get hold of anyone. I am tired and I hurt. At least this depression was keeping me from food but today I had at least 6,000 calories. I feel like shit and miss Nickolas and am worried. I just want to be home. I want to feel like I have a home. Right now I feel like I have no one. Ugh. I really hope all this bullshit can pass and everything can get better. I hope so anyway.

Random advise: Don't get too close to a fire.

-MK

stressed

Hey people. I'm still around. I've had kind of a down day. I feel gross and am seriously stressed. I realized today I don't stress about me. I held off how I felt so long that I ended up in emergency. I stress about Nickolas and where he will live. I stress about my friend living in dorms with me. I stress about my brother and his recent habits and friends. My father can't find work and I am pretty sure he deals. His bitch of a girlfriend has taken over my house, it's not even mine anymore. My grandma is in the hospital for pneumonia and it's looking bad. My cats need to go to the vet. My aunt just fond out she has breast cancer and her family can't take that kind of hit...

I just feel lost. I want to cry and have someone hold me and say it will all be okay. My biggest worry is Nickolas. He says he will die soon. He has insurance and can see doctors. he can find work. He can go to school. He just won't. I know it's his own doing. It still hurts. I am a friend for everyone. Where are my friends? Why is it no one helps me? I want to relax and be proud of my self for everything I've done and am doing. Instead I feel like shit physically and mental. here's no fun in that.

Random advise: breathe

-MK

Out of the E.R.

Well I had a fun visit last night... Yesterday I wasn't feeling well but kept blowing it off until I felt so bad I was curled up in a ball and was taken to the hospital. After an awful hospital experience I found I have bronchitis... No gym for a while which sucks.

So yeah, now I am relaxing in my dorm in pjs waiting for my dad to bring me my drugs. x) It was pretty funny in the hospital when they asked when I last smoked. I just looked at her and said I smoked today. Meaning weed. xD I just wanted to give an update to everyone. I will read other blogs, finish homework, have soup, then lay down with a book and listen to Dido. x) I just got Life For Rent yesterday for $3 at fye.

Random advise: Don't hold off if you feel sick.

-MK

Laundry day!

yeah yeah. I know I'm not around too often anymore and I really hate it but I have been busy. Finals are coming up soon and I am trying to figure out my living situation and such for the summer. Tonight I am at my house doing laundry and just bored. I hope everyone is well and no hard feelings to anyone who doesn't comment. I get that I am not here often. Sorry for the depressing shit but I just had to vent. Have a wonderful night everyone. :)

Random advise: End your day with a good thought and it should make your whole night better.

-MK

homework

I cannot do homework hhigh... lmao!
 -MK