Wow

So much has happened in the last few days. I met a whole buch of people in my family, I had a great circle for Yule, I got some great gifts aswell. I wanted to talk about all that but I just found out my friend wants to be baptized. I haven't talked to her yet about it (I'm not upset or anything), but I just can't beilve that while I want to be a full fledged Wiccan she wants to be baptized! I just am speechless.

I also wanted to say I'm deleting my blog. I'm making a new account. I'll still watch those of you I'm subscribed to and comment.

happy holidays.

addicted

I got home from a circle with my coven. It was so fun and I got to see a friend from my old school who I haven't seen for a while. I'm all clogged up now though. My little brother is sick and I caught whatever the hell he has. I have to finish X-mas presents tomorrow. (sarcasm) woo-hoo. Well really I'm supposed to go to school but I conviced my mother it is stupid to go to school if we aren't doing work. So I get to help my mother X-mas shop. I get to push her around in a wheel chair all day. (more sarcasm) woo-hoo.

I do have something to confess on here though... I'm addicted... to facebook! My mom said i'm on way to much. I thought others might find that funny. ;) Well I'm going to mess around on facebook (ha ha ha). Night all and Happy Yule.

Random advise: People can have more than one problem. Take me for example; I am horrid at history AND I'm addicted to facebook.

Yule

Well tomorrow is Yule. I'm feeling a little depressed but hopefully going over to Ashely's house for a circle will help. I soooo don't wanna go to school tomorrow. I miss all my friends at my old school. I miss getting that silly hug everyday when I walked into choir. I miss laughing with my friends at lunch. I miss walking to the bus and waiting with my friends in the cold for that big yellow hunk of metal to take us to school. I miss looking in the mirror and feeling happy about who I am. I feel like I'm in my old middle school... alone. outcast. left wwith no means of survival. Now I sit alone and cry. My friends grew away. My family grew a part. Gods know what I would do without Ashely.

Why can't life be a fairytale? Why can't I find my prince charming? Why can't he come save me and make everything better?

Random advise: No one said life was fair.

sooooo...

It's Friday and I feel like shit. Perfect. Maboon is Monday so I'd rather feel shitty now than later. I'm home alone right now so it's nice and quiet. I've only hurled twice so far and I feel better than earlier. I'm gonna try and go eat some food. -screams- CHICKEN! Ashley if you read this I really wish you could come over. I'll call later.

Random advise: Remeber, when not feeling well wear your hair up and carry a wash cloth with you.

Fine!

I can't believe I've resorted to this. I just wish I could have someone to tell me to stop. If you read the last post I'm cutting now. I can't believe what I've become over the past two years. I guess high school realy does change you. I'm now wiccan. I'm stupid and carless about everything I'm doing. I'm failing classes. I'm mix my own dangerous cocktails. I try talking to someone today and I felt great all day until I got home and my mom started to grill into me.
Today I had cheer practice then I had a Christmas concert and I did the best I've ever done singing. I was so proud of myself. I was on top of the world. Then my mom came in telling me every thing I did wrong. She got mad I didn't feel up to cleaning the house. My dad was no help either since he just supported HER. I was up until four last night in tears. I can't get her to understand either because if I tell her she will try to get me medical help we can't pay for, or she'll tell me to suck it up. I wish she could just shut up long enough to listen. I plan to talk to my sister soon. Maybe she can help. I don't want to be known as the desprite cry for attention (I confided in my oldest friend for help and that what she told me.)

Random fact: All bird have to leave to nest at some time.

Scars

I did the stupidest today. My mother pissed me off so I did something horrible. I'm not going into details but let me just say I'm really fucked up. There are somethings you just can't take back. Tears are rolling down my face. I'm in soooo much pain right now. I just wish instead of my mom telling me to do more she could tell me to stop. Now I have to fake a smile for her birthday tomorrow. She says I don't under stand her pain because she needs a new hip, well she fucking wrong!!

Random advise:
Fellings can be gotten over.
People can be forgotten.
Problems can be solved,
but deep scars will last forever.

YES!!!

It's finaly the weekend thank the gods!!! I've been sick almost all week and I still feel like crap. Not to mention my mom makes me feel like I'm in troble when I'm sick. No t.v. computer and all that stuff. I'm lucky I'm on now. sigh. I can't wait for winter break. It's almost here. My dance is coming along too. I finaly got my dance approved and it's going to be in January. Now I just need to finish my dress! Well I have to get off now. Parol officer (mom) is making me get off. Night people.

Random advise: I can't think of any. I'm too tired. Sorry :(

HIstory Again

I still am working on my Henry Ford paper. oops. Well instead of learning my lesson I'm back on here writing while I should be working on my World War 1 paper. yawn. I just decorated my locker!! HUZZAH!!! All I need to do is plug in the lights!! lmao. I'll make sure to post a picture when I'm finished. So it's almost winter break thank the gods. I got screwed over though, our winter break is from the 23 of Dec. to the 2 of Jan. Everyone else is from the 18 of Dec. to the 3 of Jan. I know I shouldn't whine but I'm still in high school I want my fair share off! Ugh. 15 min. left of class. 

I think I've mentioned I'm a cheerleader lmao. I'm pissed though because the coach doesn't have uniforms yet so she wants us to wear our school uniforms! There aren't even skirts!! They are kaki pants and a red shirt. (You don't have to wear that though. I wear a black skirt and shirt everyday and didn't order any red shirts.) I'm not paying extra for a shirt I'll wear 3 times. Well there are ten min.s left so I need to get off. To Bio.!!!! XP

Random advise:snow+ice= snow-day       snow +rain=slush

MIA!!

I know I already worte something earlier today, but I heard my friend Mia's poem and I HAD to post it. (You're awsome Mia!!)

Rush Hour by:Mia

Working harder
acting quickly
racing, pacing
hearts are pounding
coffee cup
steering wheel
deadline ended
budget spiel
cell phones pagers
company calls
6ft cubicle
4ft walls
meeting
planning
no delay
such small part
these workers play.

Ford XP

Well I'm sitting here in history class and I'm supposed to be writing a paper on Henry Ford... as you can see I'm not really in a history sort of mood. Half the other kids in my class are just playing games, lol. We are such a bunch of slackers! The rough draft is do this Friday too! Before I start going off about something random I have to tell you something about Mari. (thanks those of you who got that last line ;)) Anyway yesterday she punched me in the face!! I know right who would would want to punch me I mean I'm perfect in every way -angelic face-. Well when lunch was over I was coming up to people and said my hands were cold then I would proseed by putting my hands on there face. (My hands were FREEZING) So when I did that to Mary she turn red and punched me right on the cheek bone under my eye! It hurt like hell too!! She wasn't doing it to be mean though... I guess it was reflex... or she couldn't think of a better suited reaction... hell if I know but I forgave her since I'm such a loving person (side person: loving haha yeah right,  Mary'K (me):-punches side person out-) Anyway it doesn't hurt too bad and my face wasn't red but it hurt really bad yesterday.

Well I should get off class is almost over. I might come back on later and add to this but I'm not sure yet. Byes for now ;)

Random Quote: "Henry Ford is dead! He's been dead so write about him in the PAST tense!", my history teacher. lmao