The Shower ;)

So today has been fun. I got up and got to get Chinese for lunch. It was so good and I ate way to much. I have gain weight in the last few months though which worries me. No I am not pregnant that is for sure. I have just been really lazy and tired. I eat to much as well. But anyway... Me and Nickolas and his mother got food then she went to the store. Him and I walk off looking for stocking suffers for his mother. We ended up at dollar tree where she was and once she left we got a bunch of candy and even some fireworks. XD

We took the groceries she bought from her car while she was at work then we walk home.As soon as food was away we went back in town! lol. We passed a kitty on the side of the road. A cute all black thing which cheered me up. x) It looked hungry so we decided to get it food later. Back in town we wondered some of the shops. I was introduced to a cap gun today. I had never had or seen or used one so he bought me one. That was exciting! I am soooo easily entertained.  We went into another shop and found this adorable dragon in an egg for a dollar along with two long sticks. He bought those. x) On the way back home again we went out of the way to get some kitty food at the gas station. The little black beauty wasn't out but now there is food if he shows up again.Once home we dropped stuff off we had a fight with the sticks in the driveway. We entertained a few people who were driving and walking around. Until he broke my stick. So we switched. I destroyed his stick and that was funny. xD

Now here is the good part. Don't worry the title does relate a little to my post. hehe. Once inside we both needed a shower... (dad if you ever find this just stop reading. Never read this blog and turn back now!) I was thinking it would just be a regular shower. Of course not. hen can you have a regular shower with two people. ugh. but anyway, the jerk convinced me to mess around. In the end it was worth it but I won't tell him! Mwhahaha! He will just read it later. Then I wanted to wash my hair. I squirted shampoo all over me and had me put it in my hair. I had enough suds and soap to wash myself six times. After messing around with that he washed up and we got out.

Yeah that's it, fun parts over. I made some soup and hopped online while he put a very annoying song on repeat and passed on the couch. I'll go clean my newly studded lip and bug him. ;) I hope everyone is having a nice day. Sorry for the ooober longness of this post.I will post pictures after the holidays when I can get to my computer.

Random math: Two people plus one shower equals awesome.

Love, MK.

Lip!

I got my lip pierced  The Hobbit was amazing btw. lol. Yesterday I got up and Nickolas said we were going out. We walk to the other end of town and he emptied his back account which was like his last 20 bucks. We walked back in town and went down to the piercing and tattoo shop. He paid for me to get my labret. It is kind of a labret. A little higher than normal but that is what I asked for so later I can put in a hoop.

So anyway that was a fun day of walking through the rain. x) I am currently using his mothers laptop since internet here doesn't want to work for me.Plus more good news I started training for my job. I get to moderate online. Exciting! X) My lip is huge and I am so happy. Now to figure out how to cook drum sticks for dinner. Best news ever is I get Chinese tomorrow! SUSHI!!!!! This place has a buffet with sushi and crab legs for ten bucks! Me and Nickolas will meet his mother their while she is between jobs (she works both places the same day) and when she leaves him and I will stay. I have to eat very slowly so I need more time to enjoy all the nummyness! XD
WHAHAHA!! So hyper. Maybe I will go bug the Nickolas now. I will post pictures of my face tomorrow. x) Btw Nickolas is a butt for secretly reading my blog and not even leaving comments.

Random comment:Nickolas is behind me and watching... -sings- creeeeper...

Love, MK.

VACATION!!

Sorry I have been gone. I had a lack of internet. Now I am at a library. WOOHOO! lol So I spend some time with Nickolas's grand parents and siblings. That was fun. x) Now I am at his mothers enjoying the time away from home. I am excited to be getting my labret pierced after Christmas. x) I have much energy. lol

I don't feel like typing much sorry guys. I am going to leave soon and me and Nickolas get to see The Hobbit in this towns itty bitty theater. HUZZAH! I will write more later for everyone. Have a wonderful day.

Random Advise:I am randomly hyper!!

Love, MK.

Movin on out!

So I am leaving tomorrow to go to Nickolas's family for the holidays. I will write more later if I can. I plan on cleaning and listening to music until then. x) Thank you Rachel so much!!! I am loving it so far and will rant and rave about how wonderful it is later to you. x) I am in such a good mood right now. Well off I go! -whooshes away-

Random: -silence cause I whooshed away-

Love, MK.

Down

I feel in a really love sick mood. Sort of. I just really want to be loved. Cuddled and held. I want someone to  pet me and tell me how much they love me and want me. It is really annoying. I am so hyped up on coffee right now too. UGH! I hope this Christmas goes well. I Will be in the middle of the state with my friends family. Right now I just really want some nice loving sex and cuddles. Maybe a massage. So yup. As I spend more and more money too. Oh well. I don't really give a shit. I can live off coffee crackers and ramen. Sounds good to me. If only I could at cigarettes and cutting to the mix of fun. I am making myself depressed. Some one wanna love this needy soul? Anyone? Am I that hard to date and care for?

Random fact: I am an addict... to many things.

Love, MK.

Shoppin!

I went Christmas shopping today. I spent way too much so I am hoping to sell some gift cards and have extra cash on hand. Nothing to fun. Now I am going to chill in the chair and watch anime. My big accomplishment today is putting all my clothes away and picking things up. Now anime time. Nightynight.

Random random: blurg!

Love, MK.

Pain

This back pain is insane. Nickolas thinks it's my boobs and belly. Working out is painful though. My dad got back on pain medication too. His advise was to take one of his pills. -facepalm- I am too afraid for that. I don't need that in my life again. I still crave pills. If I go to the doctors she will do the same... Just a mini rant. Maybe I can get a back rub then go to bed. Some shopping and laundry tomorrow. Fucking burning pinching back pain. Such bull shit...

Random pain: -in my back-

Love, MK.

Home again home again...

Finals are over. Back home now for the holiday. The plan is to go to Nickolas's mother's for the holiday so I don't have to be here. That fucking bitch my father has is here again but I don't want to focus on the negative. The good news is that my job is starting next week. I have all a's. My whole schooling is covered plus I got a bonus refund I wasn't expecting. I got around 500 so now I can take my kitties to the vet and get Christmas gifts. Tonight I am taking the family and the bitch -___- out to dinner. I don't feel much like talking. I am kind of down and stressed. Plus this random awful back pain is making me want to stab things. xp Have a wonderful day anyone who reads this. I will try staying positive. I will try writing more consistently  Off to other blogs then laying down.

Random outburst: FUCK YOU DEPRESSION!

Love, MK.

Punching babies

No I am not really punching babies but I feel like it. So My owner (yes I have an owner And I love our relationship, if you don't bugger off) decided to meet up with another sub he knows. Now this is not the problem. Granted I think he could do much better  -shrugs- he still met up with her. I have met her. She seems nice but the dating type not the kind of girl he wants. Well he spent the night two nights ago. I will not lie I was a little jealous but only because I felt like I am not good enough. I will have to be more out of my comfort zone. Well I asked how it was. I figured that he would have her do what I didn't but it seems they had little abuse and fucked for like five minutes. After he came she told him not to cum inside because she is not on the pill... ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME!! He told me she doesn't want kids so if she get pregnant he'll cunt punt her. -facepalm- I said she should get an abortion if that's the case since a "cunt punt" can just create a special baby. Or better yet give me the child since I can't have children. I hate people.

Now onto today, I had punched a wall that night and my shoulder is in some serious pain, I am assuming from that. Plus I got a call form financial aid... Let me tell you. I have been in that office twice a week since school started. I have made my schedule THREE times. I get a call saying my account is blocked again... ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME!!! So all the classes I just picked are gone. Two of said classes are mandatory for my internship in the spring. One I git one of the last seats in the last class. I hate life sometimes... Now I am going to be lazy a little. Shower and go to class. I'm going to dress up damn it! Then after Nickolas gets out of class I am going strait over running up stairs to him room. When I get inside I will strip naked bend over and be fucking happy damn it!!

Random fact: College sucks ass.

Love, MK.

I never sleep...

So I got up at 8am to go on a mini road trip. UGH! My friend needed to get paper work on the other side of the state so guess who paid and had a friend drive... Yours truly  I need more sleep. Anyway I woke at seven so I could shower and eat. Nickolas came over and we waited for the driver to show. He didn't even get a hold of me until 9. After getting turned around and getting gas and extra cash we left. The whole thing was fun and stressful. We drove around and got lost and after around 3 hours we got to the court house. Nickolas got his papers and then double checked they were the correct ones.

We left the court house and got back on the road. I climbed in the back seat because I planned on getting some sleep damn it! XD Nickolas and my other friend who drove got along really well. Before I passed out the wonderful driver bought us food then on the road again. They had some talk about American conspiracy shit. I was thinking fuck this and slept most of the way there. We finally got back around 4:30 5ish. I got some food and went to Nickolas's place to get some pizza. I wish I could buy him more food or he could find a job. He has nothing in his cupboards.

Before me and Nickolas could eat I wanted him to turn in his papers to the office and... well that was an annoying process. Somewhere along the line I lost one of my favorite necklaces as well. -sigh- He got his financial aid all figured out and mine FINALLY went through, after the office fuck up my paper work repeatedly. Then we went to academics to pick our classes. I though mine were chosen but no. Because of my financial aid fucking up I never had a seat saved and I had no classes. So I picked from  the shit pile. -slams face on keyboard- Finally that was done and we went back to his room. I made the pizza and then watched tv and napped a little. Him and I took a shower as well. I won't go into details but I am getting better at blowjobs! It's a big thing for me. Damn I hope my father doesn't read this. -shrugs- I'm an adult in the fetish community so I guess it wouldn't be hard to assume I have sex. At least I am safe and take my pill and such.

The whole thing started cause I had a rare steak. I found it and he didn't want it. I ate that shit with my bare hands. I mentioned to a friend via text message saying I wanna cuddle. He read the message and well... I was happy with the results. ;) Now I will finally go to fucking bed just to wake again at 9. I have my first meeting for my job. Good news is it's a conference call over the phone online no I can stay in bed and not bother with how I look. x)

Good night everyone. Sorry for taking so long but I thought it was an eventful day worth mentioning.

Random fact: I need way more sleep and a better diet... And more coffee!!!

Love, MK.

So tired today

So today has been a long fucking day. I just am so tired. I have been slammed with assignments and papers plus school is almost out. Woohoo. I need a place to visit over break. Does anyone want to take me in for a week or so? I am clean and like to do dishes and chores. I won't walk around naked or do drugs or anything... So yeah. I don't feel like talking much. I am just so ready for bed. nightynight. x)

Random picture:

After a long day

Love, MK.

Craking the whip

I am doing awesome on a paper and need to finish. I am still alive. Next time I promise a sex story with juicy details. ;)

random fact: I procrastinate way too much!

Love, MK.

Flyin

So I went and saw Nickolas's prospective fuck buddy. She seems sweet  but I still think I am prettier. Plus my tits are bigger so there! No I am high as hell still from smoking almost two hours ago. I haven't gotten high in so long and I got the good shit. Her and I got baker while Nickolas complained. Then he never got "fun time" with her cause she had to watch the kids. Oh well. I enjoyed the night and approve  It is even better cause I don't want her and won't try for her.

Night all you sexys. I plan to masturbate tonight. Unless I get someone to fuck me hehe. ;)

Love, MK.

Random facts: I am so highhhh and it's soooo fun x)

Sick and ready for surgery

So yeah like the title says I am sick. I have a serious case of strep. I had a fever around 103.5-102.5 for a since late late Sunday night. That is finally gone. I went to the doctors and got some antibiotics. I still feel icky and my head and body ache. Plus because of all the issues I've had with my tonsils through the years the doc wants them taken out (I have been telling my doctors to rip the bitches out for years now!). So yup I'm gonna relax with some tv.

On a happy note Nickolas was the greatest guy giving mini massages, making food, getting medicine  and laying with me at night. He is the greatest. x) Plus my job went through. I take a comprehension test Monday then start training. Well, back to being lazy now.

Love, MK.

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No family time

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?! SO I was hoping to spend time with my family. Nope. My dad's whore gf and her friend are here. Even worse news because they are here I have to entertain. My brother has school and my dad has work and they are here all day. The worst news my monday and tuesday home alone and full of sex are ruined. I am ready to kick a baby. And I started my period today.

-deep breath- So yup I am going to be anti social and stay in front of my laptop because how house is too small for some many fucking people. I get to go shopping tomorrow... woo -___- Now to try and finish catching up with Rei's blog without kiling someone or breaking something.

Love, MK.

Random fact: You won't like me when I'm angry.

Good night and better morning.

Last night after I posted my dad started a nice bonfire. Then of course he left to "drop off food and say hi to some people" . He was gone for three hours and when I called him you just heard giggles and coughing. -___- Anyway I enjoyed setting things on fire and spending sometime outside with Nickolas. My brother was there for a while but went back to playing computer games since Nickolas has Skyrim on his laptop. hehe.

I went to bed around 2 and slept til 10 with no bad dreams and no waking. Then still stayed in bed til 12:30. I showered and am awake now. x) Oh, and I forgot I had this cinnamon roll things last night that's my friends gf made which was pretty good. She is still over and brought a friend... ugh. Wonderful...

Well I have no idea what I am doing today. Although, I am enjoying laying in bed. :) Maybe emptying a drawr I filled with stuff when I moved. Then I'll have a place for my clothes lol. And I need a tooth brush. The one fucking thing I forgot. I fail xp

New love...

So before I start off I want to say my new blog... well I lost is forgetting where it went. hehehe...

Anyway today I have been way to lazy. I went to bed around seven am. Then woke at 10 and 1 and 430 and 5. lazy lazy MK. It is nice to be home from college. Dorms are nice but when all the people I know are gone it is just depressing. So I am home. My best friend is spending the week too. My dad isn't too happy but it is what it is. I missed my kitties too.

This is Bambino my kitty.

This is Nickolas's kitty Kit.

This is my best friend Nickolas. You may remember him from before.

Now the title of the post has to do with my father. Now my mother abandoned my family, to runaway and be a child. She left the summer of 2010 and I haven't seen her since. Anyway since she has been gone my father has had his flings but nothing of interest. Currently he has this live in girlfriend. That wouldn't be a problem if he had known her more than a month and if he didn't call her his "FWB". I do not like having this strange woman in my house. what makes it worse is she has a fetlife... I know too much about this woman and in return too much about my father. ugh. So yes that is the main source of stress and anxiety in my life.

The reason I left the blog is lack of interest honestly. Plus the fact some many people were watching my every post and confronting my in real life it was becoming too dramatic. Now I just don't give two shits. x) I have been extremely up and down and so now I am back hoping this will help me keep more of a level head.

These are just some recent pictures of me. -waves-

Love, MK.

Random picture: You're welcome ;)

Wicca, Sex, and The Chinese

Out of all my many posts on here I don't think I have ever mentioned I am Wiccan. It is totally fine when someone will ask questions but don't go assuming what I believe. I don't think I am fucking harry potter and don't wave a wand around. I believe there is a goddess better known as mother nature who is the worlds higher power. I celebrate the changing of seasons. I am not some vegan freak or animal rights person. Also somewhere through the years Wiccan's have gotten the name of whores. No I am not. I am pan-sexual by my definition which is being attracted to all genders. Any questions you can ask but don't assume. I am realistic not insane. Every person has their own belief and mine is not stereotypical.

Sorry about the rant. Someone on another site made me ranty... If I could hug I blog a would. I feel so much better. More random shit, I am watching some weird ass Asian (Chinese I think) movie and it make no sense. The guy is like thirty creepin on a fifteen year old. Just ugh. I find myself saying I hate Asians even though that is so untrue. the bad guys are wearing American masks... -___- This is what I get for staying up til five am watching a dubbed Chinese movie. And there is Jackie Chan. wow. The things me and Nickolas get into.

Well... I am still bored. More internet searching for my Comp paper. WEEEEEEE!! "How has sex affected the modern day media."

Love, MK.

Random fact: I should be on a better sleep schedule.

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New

So here I am. I'm going to start a new blog. Comment if you want the link.

Frustrated

Now that I am out of school and have a job and am single I feel really depressed. I'm luck "cheer the fuck up ya dumb bitch" but I can't get out of it. For the first time in years my legs are soft and in the dark you cant even really tell I cut, which is weird. I feel like I need to destroy myself because my scars are part of me and when they go away so do I. Weird but the truth. I have so many reasons to be happy and I wanna fuck it all up.

Anyway Today was long and boring. I got up for work. I got home and did some cleaning. Then worked out way too much. I'm afraid I'm becoming anorexic again. Grr! Holy shit I need to calm down and get my stuff together. So my life is pretty boring. I do my best to deal. I hope tomorrow is a good day. I have no work and the house to myself until five. I'm only up because dumb me chugged a five hour energy. Fail!

I'm pretty sure I'm done ranting now... I should sleep. If you are religious at all put some prayers out to my friend Nick. He going through just life struggle and could use some guidance from whatever he can get. Thank y'all.

Random advice: Don't drink five hour energy at 3am when you are ready to pass out. Weirdest bad feeling ever.

-MK

over 1000!

I have over 1000 page views. It's so weird I've had this damn thing for so long. Anyway I jumped on the Tumblr wagon. I'm not to sure what i think about it. I really only got it because my favorite pornstar is on it. So today i had work and plan to be lazy. Tomorrow I finish all my open house invites then I can mail them out Tuesday.

 The point of today is to mention a new favorite author. Lynsay Sands writes romance novels. She has a series and I finished the first book (Born to Bite) which I totally recommend. Her story line is over done with the whole vampire thing. Her description were good... well? I'm not sure which word to use but I enjoyed the book anyway. What I want to read next is a comic called rose and thorn and I can't find the fucking thing anywhere without paying for it! GRRR!!! With that said and my brother gone for a few days I think I'll go look for something new to read. Enjoy your day everyone... OR ELSE! :D 

Random question: Why did you become interested in my blog?

New Laptop

So I graduated! So amazing. I have this new laptop and still working at McDonald's.i don't have much to say really. Just have no life here and decided to post. This is now a new bookmark so I will post everyday so everyone can get sick of me! mwhahahaha!!!

Medication Melt Down

So let me play a little catch up with you all...

Tuesday I went to school seemingly fine. When school was about to start I was feeling weird. I started telling my friend about it and then she came up and hugged me. I was talking to no one. Things just got worse. I was hearing voices and saw random thing and people. Obviously my new meds were fucking with me. The problem was I couldn't find a way home.

(Cation this is ranty) My dad can't pick me up cause he works an hour away and my gram was out of town. Granted I am sick a lot but I think going from med to med doc to doc I have a bit of a fucking reason to be home. I may not have needed to be home a few days but it's not like I skip. Anyway I ask my sister to get me and she won't cause she's pissed seemingly at me. I ask my aunt and eventually I get a ride from her. Now I don't want to bash my aunt, she was in a bad mood when she got me. The point is she said some not so nice things out of anger and thought I was lying about how I felt. After screaming a while I get dropped off.

About halfway home I remembered I have no key and there is no spare... it's Michigan so there was snow... I'm alone, locked out, the only open inner window is mine. I start ripping out the screen so I can crawl through then the window falls. I'm still balling my eyes out from earlier and my neighbor sees me with a screen in one and and my bag in the other. She invites me inside then leaves me alone so she can run errands. About twenty minutes later my aunt calls saying sorry and ends up picking me up. I stay with her and talk to til about two then pass out til four thirty.

My dad gets me and I go home. I fall asleep til nine then wake and go to be like midnight.

Wednesday I went to school on a emotional roller coaster from I'm assuming from the with draw of meds. It was slowly getting better then I went to fifth hour. We got new seats. I was facing the whole room closest to the door in the front of the room. Perfect for me in a room of strangers. She moved we to the far wall facing away from EVERY ONE! I was stuck there all hour! (she changed my seat today to the middle of the room in a more open space.) I pretty much spent the rest of the day sleeping.

So, today School was better but still oober tired. Plus I remember why I hate typing at home. Too much family drama. I was supposed to go to the doctors today too but we lost insurance for who the hell knows what reason so I canceled.

What is cool is the Internet is on for our one living computer and the house insurance money came back. See, earlier the electric went all cookoo for coco puffs and pretty much everything blew. Good new I get a new laptop and tv for graduation. Haha! XD Plus tomorrow I'm making the call to schedule my drivers test. I have a car so once I get the license I get to see my new girlfriend who lives in another city.

Sleepy now. About to eat something then cuddle with my kitties. Night night. X)

Done with Fear and Done with Tears

I'm back and will post once a week and have a log for everyday. Finding the internet it kind of difficult. I have to always make a run to the library. If you noticed this blog was disabled. Well I brought it back. I don't care what people say about the past anymore. I'm done with it.

So the bad news is I have no working computers or internet at home. The good news is:
I have one kitty named bambino almost a year old. (Still peeing on the floor but working on that)
I have my friend's kitty since he moved away so she is a temporary guest I'm glad to have.
My college should be paid in full plus dorm at Baker. (Major in Human Sciences)
I am about to fucking graduate! Hell yeah!
I will leave with an accumulative 2.6 GPA and (so far) a 3.6 just for this year.
I'm adoring a girl who seems to like me in return I think this could really go somewhere.
I have a great gram who supports me.
Some new meds that are doing wonders.
I still work at McDonald's but hey, it's a paycheck.
I have an amazing best friend and even though he can be a pain in the ass, I don't know where I'd be without him.

I'm much better. No cutting. If I drink it is a little wine with dinner and not often. No pain meds or narcotics period. My hair is growing back out and to my shoulders. I'm slowly losing weight. Even a pound of weight is something, right?

If you follow me to listen to sob stories and about how I used bad methods to deal with pain then you might as well not listen. I'm done with depression and ready to live a full happy life I know I deserve.

My Love- Sia