Counseling...

So the doctor I went to said I need to get into counseling. My mother said we can't go cause insurance doesn't cover it. She didn't know I called before hand and found out there were alternate places to go. She's such an ass. It suck know the people who read my blog (mainly one person) know more about me than almost anyone else. I want to leave me house so bad but I know if I leave they'll bring me back. It sucks. I also found out the only way for me to cope with my head aches so far is cutting. I try t cut over old scars so I don't have to make new ones. sigh. I just need someone who well listen to me and not judge. I know my life doesn't seem that bad but all the stress my parents put me through... There are so many temptations in my house. Two shelves of medications... sharp objects... alcohol. Now my computers not working either so I'm at my neighbors right now. Some times I wish I could just kill me self, but I can't be that selfish. I have to take care of other people. I just hope my mom will try and be nice and drive me to and from work since I don't have a licence. If she can drive I can get a job. Then when I have enough money I'm leaving. I'll buy my own place or bunk with a friend. I just don't know how much more I can take until I explode. I should get back to homework. Later I'll cry and cut to try and smooth over my splitting headaches.

-Mary'K

Random advise: If you think your life is bad look at someone elses... you might just feel better. (I take that might with a grain of salt though.)