Hey people. I'm still around. I've had kind of a down day. I feel gross and am seriously stressed. I realized today I don't stress about me. I held off how I felt so long that I ended up in emergency. I stress about Nickolas and where he will live. I stress about my friend living in dorms with me. I stress about my brother and his recent habits and friends. My father can't find work and I am pretty sure he deals. His bitch of a girlfriend has taken over my house, it's not even mine anymore. My grandma is in the hospital for pneumonia and it's looking bad. My cats need to go to the vet. My aunt just fond out she has breast cancer and her family can't take that kind of hit...
I just feel lost. I want to cry and have someone hold me and say it will all be okay. My biggest worry is Nickolas. He says he will die soon. He has insurance and can see doctors. he can find work. He can go to school. He just won't. I know it's his own doing. It still hurts. I am a friend for everyone. Where are my friends? Why is it no one helps me? I want to relax and be proud of my self for everything I've done and am doing. Instead I feel like shit physically and mental. here's no fun in that.
Random advise: breathe
-MK
About Me
- EviltwinMK
- GB, Michigan, United States
- We all have our own story. We all have certain things we do that keep us sane. Those certain things that constitute as our sanities. Well these are my sanities. These are the sanities of a crazy person...
Considering that I was going to make an attempt on my life yesterday, you may not want my advice or help... However, I've always found the best way to deal with stress is to smoke, A LOT! I'm sorry that you're dealing with so much shit on your plate, I can't imagine what you're going through... I don't know what to say other than to keep yourself grounded and do what's best for you! Don't let other people fuck your life up and if that's what they're doing, find a way to get away from all of it... I'm not recommending suicide or anything like that, but if people can't help themselves and they're dumping all their shit in your lap, then tell them all to go fuck themselves. You can't waste time on people that won't help themselves or their own situations... That's just my feelings on things, but again, you may want to ignore me altogether because I'm in a fragile state of mind myself... Try and have a lovely evening and weekend, dear! <3 <3 <3 * *Hugs*
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If only I could smoke. This whole bronchitis thing prevents me from even weed.
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