Everyone has their good days and their bad days. I'm not sure what today was. Let me start with yesterday.
So yesterday I went to the doctors and the chick said I need to go on a diet. Now I know I'm a big girl. I do weigh 210 but I also have double D's and broad shoulders. Plus I'm about 5'6''. She told me I need to lose weight and drop a few sizes. I'm a size 16! That's just above if not average. I think I'm fine they way I am and it took me all day to figure that out. That was yesterday.
Today I stayed home sick. My head hurt really bad. I think I might have some anxiety issues. I don't want to say I do but I think I might. I just wish I could talk to a trained professional about all my issues. Here are the problems... I don't have the balls to talk to my sis. I don't want to talk to my folks. I don't want my friends to know. I now hate my family doctor. I'm such a screw up.
Anyway I'm gonna finish up my English project. I'll post some pictures tomorrow if I can. I'm crossing my fingers for a better day tomorrow.
Random statement: Gorilla glue is really great for gluing bark to plastic.
-Mary'K
About Me
- EviltwinMK
- GB, Michigan, United States
- We all have our own story. We all have certain things we do that keep us sane. Those certain things that constitute as our sanities. Well these are my sanities. These are the sanities of a crazy person...
Darling, you are a beautiful girl and there is nothing wrong with the way you look! Doctors are fucking assholes that want their patients to live up to fucking impossible standards. We're all built differently and we all need to feel comfortable in our own skin. Don't let them get the best of you!
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry to hear that your medical and mental issues are still getting in the way of your daily life. I hope you're able to open up to someone, anyone, really soon and that you can get past all of this. Just so you know, though, mental health issues or not, everybody deals with anxiety, so it's not completely abnormal for you to be having issues with it.
I hope all goes well with your project, darling! <3 *Hugs*
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