So I stayed home from school today. I'm so glad the year is almost over. I have 36 days until the last day of school. I've missed about 80 days this year. I know there are a lot of people who think I missed school because I just didn't want to go. To those people I say (with as much sarcasm as I can muster),"Yes I waste half my life laying in bed crying for the hell of it. Yes I love missing school and getting behind in all my classes. Yes I love being know as a failure." If you didn't guess I'm not in a very good mood. I'm in a lot of pain. My chest hurts so bad. I don't know what I did but it's hard to breath and I feel like I can't catch my breath. If it gets much worse I'm having my mom take me to the E.R. I feel like I'm physically falling apart. This has also made me cut more often which I know isn't helpful. I need to fix my problems fast. Sometimes I'm afraid for myself.
I do have some good news. I found out I might have a new place to live for the summer. My best friend -hugs- Ashley might take me in. I can't wait to leave this house. I can get away from all the bad temptations. I'll have no alcohol or smokes. I won't have to yell everyday. I just hope it all works out.
It started raining again... It seems the weather is like my mood, it will be bright and sunny then that one little cloud will get in the way. That cloud will ruin gardens and soak the friendly joggers. It's a sad cycle really. I just hope that stupid cloud can get out of the way soon . Sometimes I miss the sun.
Random advise: Sometimes you just need to cry to make yourself feel better.
-Mary'K
About Me
- EviltwinMK
- GB, Michigan, United States
- We all have our own story. We all have certain things we do that keep us sane. Those certain things that constitute as our sanities. Well these are my sanities. These are the sanities of a crazy person...
I agree with your advice, darling. There's nothing quite like a good cry! Your breathing troubles and chest pain are very worrisome to me, though... Chest pain and loss of breath are often a sign of heart and/or lung problems and should be checked out immediately! It could be something as simple as asthma, or at least I hope so... Maybe you just need an inhaler or something. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you, darling, you don't need anymore health problems at your age... And that's good that you might be able to get away for the summer! I hope you do and it makes you feel a lot better! <3 *Hugs*
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