So my head has hurting really bad yesterday then got worse this morning. This morning was really bad. I spent most of first hour in the bathroom crying. I got lucky (if you call it luck) and remembered I brought my tweezers with me and spent a bit of time in the bathroom before seventh hour cutting. I only made one new scar which is good. The rest were just old scars.
I'm not sure what to think of my new anti-depressants. At first they made me really hyper but now they don't seem to do much. Tomorrow I start taking them twice instead of once a day. I also have my first therapy session tomorrow. I'm not sure if I'm ready for it. I'm doing some research on therapy. (I like facts) I want to make sure I say nothing to get me in some little white room. I also don't know anything about this doctor so I'm looking for tell tale signs a someone who is a fraud.
I'm ready for the summer to come. I'm ready to be done with all this drama and just run off to my sisters. I want to stay at her house all summer. We're still discussing it though. I just hope it all works out.
Random advise: Stareing at the computer trying to come up with random advise for twenty minutes is a waste of time. lmao
-Mary'K
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- EviltwinMK
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- We all have our own story. We all have certain things we do that keep us sane. Those certain things that constitute as our sanities. Well these are my sanities. These are the sanities of a crazy person...
Darling, you're going to still have ups and downs, even with the meds. They're not a cure all like the doctors portray them to be. The reason that you were hyper at first is because you were introducing uppers into your system. Now that your body has gotten a little used to the medication, things are going to start feeling more "normal" but you will notice the difference in mood eventually. You may go through another "hyper" spell with the increase in dose, but it will most likely be short lived... I hope that helps...
ReplyDeleteAs for the therapy appointment... They're not going to send you to a mental hospital. They are going to ask you some questions that COULD land you there, and I'm going to tell you what they are. First: "Do you want to hurt yourself?" You can tell them about the cutting if you want to, but tell them you don't feel that way at the moment. Second: "Do you want to hurt anybody else?" NO! If you answer yes to this, they'll lock you up faster than your head can spin. Third: "Do you see or hear things that nobody else can see or hear?" You can be truthful with this one. There is no right or wrong answer. It won't land you in a nuthouse unless you tell them the voices in your head are telling you to kill yourself or anybody else... Those are the main three that I've been asked about 6,000 times during the course of my life. Hopefully my little guide will serve you well... Other than that, just be truthful with them. They ask you things so that they can treat and medicate you properly. Best of luck, darling! <3
+Rei+
Many times life does not demand understanding it, but to say YES to it.
ReplyDeleteThank you both again. You always give the best advise Rei. :)
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