My party is stressing me out. So is my mother and father. So is money. Everything. I've gone back to cutting. I'm not drinking or smoking anymore. I guess no drinks or smokes is a plus. I'm also going back to my goth garb. I feel like dressing dark. It looked better on me and it better suits my mood. Now I'm going to listen to Emilie Autumn and check my various accounts. Then clean the rest of my room and listen to evanescence. I have to get up early tomorrow to mow the lawn and shop for this party. Then I'll be dying my hair black.
Plus today I went to the doctors. She told me I'm fat and need to lose more weight. Excuse me but I'm a solid 14 and I left weights. I can run a damn mile without stopping! She's such a fucking bitch! Then she asked if I'm depressed. I looked at her and said I am now. She ignored me. sigh. It didn't bug me that she said I was fat but I mean she could have at least said good job on losing 15lbs in a month in a half. Whatever... Just a little update for all of you.
Random advise: Hurting yourself helps the pain from others hurt less.
-Mary'K
About Me
- EviltwinMK
- GB, Michigan, United States
- We all have our own story. We all have certain things we do that keep us sane. Those certain things that constitute as our sanities. Well these are my sanities. These are the sanities of a crazy person...
Mary... I have never seen this side of you before... I FUCKING LOVE IT! <3 <3 <3 First of all, the new design is great and I love the new profile pic!
ReplyDeleteIf you're hurting that badly and you need something to release the stress, cutting will definitely help in that department. It may even make you feel euphoric... The random advice that you've posted tonight is spot on, too!
Don't fucking listen to doctor's, they know dick... They tell me that I'm too thin and that I need to stop smoking and taking pain killers, and go to physical therapy more to get back into shape... Yeah, someday... Fuck them. Be yourself and be content with who you are.
Welcome to the dark side, darling! Whee! <3 *Hugs*
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You always cheer me up. :) I'm glad you like the real me. lol. Isn't the picture amazing?! It's not me but it looks pretty close I thought. I'm going to try out the makeup and such once I get the time.
ReplyDeleteYes, the picture is amazing. I thought it was you at first... Be sure to post pictures if you decide to do this look! <3
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